When I was still pregnant, I started going to La Leche League meetings to learn more about breastfeeding.  After speaking with other moms I knew that the journey of breastfeeding is not always easy, and I didn’t expect it to go absolutely perfect.  But I also didn’t expect it to be quite as hard as it has been.

Right from the start we struggled.  Nate would latch but wasn’t getting enough.  Nobody knew why…they said he was a lazy eater.  It didn’t make sense to me, but not knowing much better I went with it.  The day came when we were to leave the hospital, and they told me until he wet two more diapers, he couldn’t leave.  The RN told me to give him formula…just a little bit to help him out.  After hours of crying on both Nate and my parts, I gave in.  He had 1/2 ounce of formula.  He wet his two diapers and we were allowed to leave.  I still feel bad about that formula on his tiny sensitive tummy.  But I guess it came down to either that or him being kept in the hospital and me being sent home.

By the second day after he was born I realized my soreness was no longer just soreness.  I cried every time he latched.  I dreaded feeding him.  The lactation consultant at the hospital said my nipples looked fine.  I swear she was looking at someone elses nipples!

The day after we came home I went to see another lactation consultant.  She told me I had severe damage to my nipples.  Then she looked at my son.  Within two seconds she found the problem.  He was tongue tied, and pretty severely.  How they didn’t catch that at the hospital I don’t know.

Fast forward 9 weeks.  We sit at the specialists office while they tell me what a simple procedure it is….no blood…just a pinch.  My poor son screamed hysterically, I was crying, and he was BLEEDING all over the place.  I was so glad when I could scoop him up and run from the office.  I couldn’t even nurse him for 20 minutes afterwards.

Nate had a swollen mouth for well over a week and had trouble latching for at least as long.  And because of the tongue tie causing problems for so long, my supply suffered as well…something we’re still working on.

All I know is despite the problems, it has been worth it!!!

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