I never truly realized how deep my love would be for my son. I mean, of course I knew I would love him. I knew that the second I laid eyes on him I would fall in love. But I thought I had been in love before, and what I felt when I saw my son for the first time, well, it just can’t be compared to anything else.
He makes my heart melt. He takes my breath away. When I see him the whole world stops and I see nothing but him. It made me realize that I NEVER knew true love until Nathanial was in my life.
My heart breaks when I have to leave him. I have moments of panic when I’m at work. When I start my nearly hour long commute back home I have constant butterflies in my chest and belly. I just can’t get there soon enough. After parking my car I practically sprint inside so I can hold him and snuggle him and examine him to make sure he’s just as I left him.
I know someday he will not need me as deeply, and I am sad thinking of that day. But for now, my little snuggle bunny thinks I am the best thing EVER, and I will cherish every moment I have with him, even the tear filled ones.
